Mrshellonheels

Those of you who remember me, remember what I was going thru the last time I posted back in 2006. My problems with my middle son, affectionately refered to asshole #2 still has a host of problems.



He has been diagnosed with Poly substance dependence
Poly substance dependence refers to a type of substance dependence disorder in which an individual uses at least three different classes of substances indiscriminately and does not have a favorite drug that qualifies for dependence on its own.
Poly substance dependence is listed as a substance disorder in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders published in 2000 (also known as the DSM-IV-TR). The DSM-IV-TRis the latest revision of the manual that it is used by mental health professionals to diagnose mental disorders. When an individual meets criteria for dependence on a group of substances (at least three different types used in the same 12-month period) he or she is given the diagnosis of poly substance dependence. For example, an individual may use cocaine, sedatives, and hallucinogens indiscriminately (i.e., no single drug predominated; there was no "drug of choice") for a year or more. The individual may not meet criteria for cocaine dependence, sedative dependence, or hallucinogen dependence, but may meet criteria for substance dependence when all three drugs are considered as a group.
There is very little documented regarding the causes of poly substance dependence.



He has also been diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia
Paranoid schizophrenia is the most common type of schizophrenia in most parts of the world. The clinical picture is dominated by relatively stable, often paranoid, delusions, usually accompanied by hallucinations, particularly of the auditory variety, and perceptual disturbances. Disturbances of affect, volition, and speech, and catatonic symptoms, are not prominent.
Examples of the most common paranoid symptoms are:
delusions of persecution, reference, exalted birth, special mission, bodily change, or jealousy;
hallucinatory voices that threaten the patient or give commands, or auditory hallucinations without verbal form, such as whistling, humming, or laughing;
hallucinations of smell or taste, or of sexual or other bodily sensations; visual hallucinations may occur but are rarely predominant. Thought disorder may be obvious in acute states, but if so it does not prevent the typical delusions or hallucinations from being described clearly. Affect is usually less blunted than in other varieties of schizophrenia, but a minor degree of incongruity is common, as are mood disturbances such as irritability, sudden anger, fearfulness, and suspicion. "Negative" symptoms such as blunting of affect and impaired volition are often present but do not dominate the clinical picture.



He is also Bipolar and has Clinical depression which is a serious medical illness that negatively affects how you feel, the way you think and how you act. Individuals with clinical depression are unable to function as they used to. Often they have lost interest in activities that were once enjoyable to them, and feel sad and hopeless for extended periods of time. Clinical depression is not the same as feeling sad or depressed for a few days and then feeling better. It can affect your body, mood, thoughts, and behavior. It can change your eating habits, how you feel and think, your ability to work and study, and how you interact with people. People who suffer from clinical depression often report that they "don't feel like themselves anymore."

May I also add that he is the Biggest F'ing asshole that I have ever met? Is that a disease? Can it be cured? Is there a pill for that?

If the dumb bastard would just STOP drinking cough medicine like it's candy to get high, he might get a clue or two, but its been years now and I don't see that happening. Who would have thought, that you can be just as addicted to cough medicine..actually DXM, as you can be to heroin. Amazing.

Now, that I got all that out of the way, and some of you will remember all the problems I have had with him, let me tell you that his girl friend (remember her?) is just as bad as he is. In fact, more so I suppose since she is locked away in a state mental institution and has been for going almost on a year now.



The stress those 2 have put me thru over the last 2 years is mind boggling, I honestly don't know how I have dealt with it. But I have.



I am raising their 2 children, I'm going to rephrase that, I am raising my two children that they made. Remember my grand daughter who I posted all the time about about 2 years ago? Well I have had her since I last posted on this blog back in 2006. She was 13 months old at the time, and has been with me ever since. We have permanent legal custody of her and we are going to adopt her. But dig this, that wasn't bad enough...they went and made another baby who I just got one month ago. This time we have a baby boy, who is only 2 months old. We also have permanent legal custody of him, and will be adopting him also.

I love both my son and his gf, but let me tell you, I would like to choke the shit out of both of them until their eyes bulged out. In my opinion, they had no business making another child. They had no business deciding that I needed to raise yet another child. All they care about is their next high, or what ever pleases them at the moment. They live for each second without a care for the future, not even theirs.

So, I raised my sons, and they are all grown men...Now I am a mommy all over again. I love these kids and I will protect them with my life. Nobody will ever hurt them again, and my husband and I will raise them as our own, and give them a normal family and life that they deserve. But damn it.....damn it to hell...I should have been allowed to be the grandma.
But, even saying that, it is what it is and I am going to provide the best possible life for these 2 angels. God Help Me, cause I'm gonna need it.

In fact all snarkiness aside, I could use some pointers on potty training etc etc...it's been a few years ya know.